i am learning through this process that while i love having preferences in life (music, food, tv) i don’t have to choose them all the time simply because i like how they define who i am.  because a craving is one thing, a habit and a choice are another.

i went to see a 2pm movie today (the perks of being a freelancer).  in my head before leaving the house i was like “oh man i really want red vines & a diet coke” but i never drink diet coke any more and i wasn’t really sure i wanted red vines.  i think i just wanted them because it’s what i would get at the movies earlier this year when i first started weight watchers.  and i thought no.  i’m going to get seltzer at the store next to the theater and something with a little more nutrition and something not as sweet since i didn’t even want red vines.

i can still love food but not be a slave to it simply because it’s something i like.  i always have a choice.

unfortch i ended up with a very un-cost effective choice.  i got a bag of popchips.  i ended up eating the whole thing.  it was more points than the red vines and more points than i probably would have eating on a big filling lunch.  i guess i was hungrier than i realized (or salt and vinegar chips are more delicious).

but i’m still learning.  i’m still going to the gym today.  and i’m still happy to be going through this process.